I think I might be slipping into depression.
Not those mental-darkpit-never-to-recover depression but merely feeling the low now that holidays season is finally over.
March and April is quite bland with nothing to do and adding to the injury, work is still at the same hectic pace.
My partner from the firm called me someday ago asking why I had only taken 3 days off the entire year. Her concern comes two fold, partly due to concern that I might burn out from heavy work and also because The Firm is paying me back all those unused annual leaves and I’m getting a hefty sum from it. I hope that it’s more of the earlier.
I’ve decided to take a day off each month as something good to look forward to. Also for once I’ve actually planned a trip middle of this year to KK and the other to Krabi this coming November. So something to look forward to both short and long term. A lot of my seniors are doing something similar as well. I believe this would be the trend moving forward.
I feel apologetic as I have friends that is in fear of loosing their job and I’m sweating about my workload. To offset a little guilt, I’ve done some recruitment among my friends and actually got a friend of mine a job. Lets call her G. Well, actually she haven’t got the job but I do hope HR is considering something. I have friends thinking of leaving The Firm due to the workload and it’s nice to have some fresh blood on the floor (not to be taken literaly).
I’m loosing slight control of my expenses this month, due to a series of events both fortunate and yet preventable. Let me explain.
I had in mind of upgrading my desktop. However the only salvageble part is the processor, hard disc and RAM. Due to the release of Intel i7 series of processors, I had budgetted to replace the motherboard with a top of the line P45 board (best of the last generation, got a bargain). I eventually purchased the Gigabyte EP45-UD3P. Paired it with my current C2D processor and 4GB of RAM, it was a sweet combination for a 32bit machine.
Unfortunately, due to my stupidity, I forgot that my ex-desktop used an integrated graphic card and my shiny new mobo has none. So the budget I had in mind for an ATI HD4870 had to be brought forward to this month. I even had to drive down to KL again to get the card.
So in total, instead of the RM600 I had planned to splurge on my upgrade works, I had used up a total of RM1300 just because of my blunder.
Usually in times like this, what happens next is that I’ll get a shock from my credit card bill, followed by an emptiness in my accounts, followed by strict discipline in the coming month not to overspend, hopefully by the end of next month, I’ll be back within budgetary control.
My upgrade works is still pending, it is hoped that eventually I’ll be able to max everything out by replacing the processor with a Core 2 Quad and get a boost in the hard disc space. Now that will have to wait.
Ending this post on a good note, at least when I’m tired from work, there will be a shiny new pc with fresh games installed beckoning me to just sit down and relax.